Spiritual Guidance

"Spiritual Guidance" what do these words mean to you? Would it surprise you if I said that "Spiritual Guidance" means many things and that what it means to me may not be what it means to you? Let me explain. Since about 2014 I started exploring what my life would look like if I followed the guidance of my higher self. Let me tell you, it's not at all what I thought. Like others I thought that if you are following the guidance of your higher self, or my spirit guides that nothing that I deemed unfavorable would happen to me. I couldn't have been more wrong. At first I lost all my family and friends, my job, then my home, my car, until I had lost everything. But did I really lose everything? It certainly appeared that way as I was homeless and sleeping on the streets. I remembered things that had been said to me by people as they exited my life and those thoughts persisted. I was told by a "friend" that I couldn't stay with them in their spare bedroom because I needed to figure out why I was continuously becoming homeless. Why people were turning their backs on me. I was told by a family member that the Spirit world were not my friends. I was accused by another family member of joining a cult that changed my behavior.

Of course none of this was true. But if it wasn't true than why was I experiencing all of this? So I asked my higher self I mean after all who would know better right? I was told that the "friends" I had lost weren't my friends at all. When I felt into this statement it rang true and as I thought back on things I started noticing stuff that I was aware of when it happened but had ignored for the sake of friendship. People offering to help me in exchange for sexual favors, or for money. Of course I wouldn't even consider any of it, because I had to live with myself and if I did any of that I wouldn't be able to. Then it dawned on me, this is not helping because we're friends it's helping for what you can get out of it. It's taking advantage of someone who is down. So my higher self was right, they were not my friends. But what about my job? When I was truthful with myself I was bored with it. There was no growth for me in it and it certainly didn't challenge me in any way, shape, or form. Okay so why wouldn't anyone else hire me? I had an impeccable resume. That answer wouldn't come until much later. Suffice to say it wasn't about my resume or my lack of wanting to work or was it? Well it definitely wasn't about my resume however again being truthful with myself the only reason I was applying for jobs was to please others. Wrong reason.

I wanted to help others, not put a band aid on their problems but actual life changing help. Working at the local Mickey D's wouldn't allow me to do that. My car and my home? They were a burden on me. Between the two my monthly bills were almost all of my paycheck. The rent alone accounted for more than 1/2 of my paycheck. I was literally working for others and getting nothing from it. So I began to see how unhappy I was but had accepted it because what else was there? I didn't know anything else or another way to be. My higher self did. So everything I thought I lost wasn't really a loss at all. There was no support, no accepting me for who I was spiritually, no value in anything that was in my life. My higher self was guiding me to release everything that had no value to make room for things and people that did. I saw it now and it makes sense. If you want someone in your life you have to add value to their lives but more importantly you have to be someone who recognizes when someone is adding value to your life. The people in my past did not. My higher self knew this and did what I couldn't... let them go. So Spiritual Guidance doesn't mean that there won't be difficulty it simply means that you'll be glad it happened.